Back to Abnormal...

       Yes, it feels exactly what I have mentioned above. Sometimes it's most hard to express how we feel,  but sometimes it's as easy as eating a piece of cake. I am eating the second category right now. Wait, what? Did I typed 'abnormal'?  Oh my god.  Even when I am writing my post, am sticking to the context of the topic being read by you now. It's not abnormal to write that we are 'abnormal'. But it is for sure, to accept it as a normal thing that happens now and then in life. 

     

         So, yeah I am back to my usual abnormal form. People around me wonders what I am upto?, where I am going?, What I am doing? (I am talking about people who really cares about me atleast once in a day). You may ask "What do I mean by 'abnormality'?" Here is my explaination for those who wants one.

         I suddenly decides to go somewhere without me knowing about it even before the minute of my decision. I do things that makes me feel like am still an organic matter that evolves along with it's surroundings(which most of the people doesn't possess these days). I don't use to inform my where-abouts to anyone not because am lethagic and doesn't consider other's feel. It's because I myself don't know where am being headed and where I will end up at the end of the day. 

         Sometimes it turned out unfortunate and even worse. But I like to be such a person who doesn't have bounds. Ofcourse everyone likes to be such person. The difference is am being one and at the same time am gaining manythings from these experiences. This is who I am. It doesn't makes me an aimless being who wander around without any purpose or goal. I doesn't simply wander around and even if I do, it doesn't necessarily makes me worthless. 

    

          I would like to share one incidence among many that happened yesterday. They say 'In city there are many chances of getting cheated by wicked people'. Unfortunately it happens to be that most of the malpractices do takes place in cities with huge population count, which transforms even good hearted people to become self-centered. This particulate mindset of majority of people is making it hard for few to seek help even at the needed times. An aged women carrying two large bags was standing at the railway station. When I eventually crossed her, she asked me if I can give ten rupees. I stopped and turned to that lady. She doesn't looked like a beggar(I personally don't give money to beggars as I feel that I may become a cause for such thing in the future). When I looked into her eyes, they were almost filled with tears. I asked why she is asking for money. She said it costs 30 rupees to hire an auto to go to her home,  and that she has only twenty rupees. I felt she probably can't walk carrying those luggages in her age. So I gave her twenty rupees. Now I hear some of you murmuring, 'How ammature should you be to believe such an obvious nonsense?' Yes I accept. I don't know whether the lady was honest or not. I don't know whether people use such tricks to cheat strangers. I don't know if I was the only one who got cheated. Let us put apart what happened really there yesterday. Here am not trying to convey my belief of not gotten cheated. One thing that satisfied me the most is that smile on the women's face after recieving the twenty rupees note from me. It made me wonder 'How I had become the center of action when hundreds and hundreds of people were going there?' She might have asked someone else before me and they might have refused to hear her stories. Those who refused obviously would have felt proud that they managed not to become an idiot. But I too felt proud at the moment after I handed over the money, because in future if someone like the old lady who may really be in deserving situation asks me the same thing, I wouldn't be a person who refuses to help them and feel proud that I managed not become Idiot(like those who refused the old-lady's request). My innosense and stupidity yesterday will not me a hypocrite and irrational person in future. I think this is how everyone should change their mindsets while helping others. 

          This may seem crazy to someone. That is why I called myself abnormal and I am happy for that.       

Strange Relationship!!!

               I don't know who she is. She comes to the bus stop once in a while where I board my college bus. I don't know where she lives. She always wears a white salwar kameez. I don't know how old she is. She carries a brown backpack and also a handbag. I don't know what she is doing. Whether a college student or an employee at any company or a labour, I don't know. I only know one thing. Her round eyes with grey pupil isn't something to be sighted and move on normally.                  

               When I talk about a girl's eyes, I feel like the readers may think of this post as a chance for me to express my secret crush about some girl I have seen before. If so believe me, it is not. We humans from our evolution on this world to this minute I am typing the post had lived our lives by engaging in relationships. We created relationships. We overruled them. We got cherished by them. We made them cruel. We disavowed people around us because of some relationships. We sacrificed ourselves for the people because of the same relationships.  Are these relationships that humankind engaged the only possibilities for any two humans to have a connection?  Who are the first two humans to have a friendship in the world? Who are the first two people who become siblings to each other? Who are those two persons to become first teacher and first student? Are these relationships were predefined?  Did anyone know how it would be like to have a friendship before someone started being friends for the first time?  It happened worldwide as civilisations started emerging, I accept. But there should have been two persons who longed so much and should have had a desire to feel the friendship. 

           

             The girl I met and I have a strange relationship. I don’t know whether she feel the same. I don’t feel any love or I don’t have any soft corner on her. But still, whenever she comes my heart starts pounding. I don’t want her to talk to me or share things with me. I don’t want her to know that I have this kind of feel about her. I don’t want her to see me or sense that I am staring at her. I neither want her to expect anything from me, nor do I expect anything from her except one thing. I want her to come to the same bus stop once in a while and stand in front of me. I want her to do it for my whole life. I want her to be that part of my life.  

   

Take part!!!

                 Many times I ask my friends to take part in any events along with me... I use to think they would be longing to be a part in such events... Which I suggest based on their Individual interests that I got to observe on my best... Unfortunately they deny the suggestion often... I give them a strange look and let it go...

                 Now I want to analyse the reason for their denial and their state of mind which doesn't  let them be a part of these events...
             
                 The reasons they use to put forward when I question them are 1) Parents won't permit, 2) Can't travel so long, 3) Have to be back home on time, 4) Got some other work(which doesn't seem plausible in my view), 5) What am I going to do participating in that? 6) I don't think it will be useful for me, 6) I will try to be a part next time, 7) I don't think it's a good idea, 8) I got suspicions on the event management and I don't think I need to participate in that event to prove myself and the list goes on... The most funny ones are those when they ask me "Why you are taking part in that?"...

               These might be feasible reasons to convince me, but I don't think they actually got issues in accepting the suggestion... Don't think am pointing at their own decisions and making comments on others self right to live there life and do things... Am just putting my friends as an example for this kind of people... Its not only case of some people around me... Most people in today's life style have attitude of 'Live-at-safer-side-as-others-do'...

               They are finding reason from a nook of the buried world and throwing them as the reason for there disability... Here by saying 'disability', I didn't mean they are  unable to take part... They are unable to have a mind that keeps them ready to take part... This is Human's psych... If a person gets into an awful situation or a kind of situation where they need to put their efforts to accomplish that thing, they simply get satisfied by dragging something inevitable(which they think so) and use to stand apart from that  situation...

                 I think this is where people should practice the saying "Stop, Think and Go"... All of us need to come over this problem of finding reasons so that we can step into the next stage... They are also the important moments in one's life,for the fact that our activities define our characters... One can be portrayed as a hard working person only after he/she works hard... They just cannot start working hard only because their character was said to be a hard working type... A thief is not a thief before he steals for the first time... A sculpture is just a stone before it gets carved by an artist...A canvas is just a white paper before some one intend to make it a colourful art... Like wise one cannot become what they want to become before they are ready to commit themselves to do the things which eventually make them what they want... Every denial is the missing of great opportunity...

• What if Sachin had denied his first attempt to stand in the field? 
• What if Wright Brothers had got satisfied by their ability to jump against the gravity using their legs? 
• What if Steve Jobs had decided not to visit the manufacturing industries around his town which he might have thought as useless ones? 
• What if Einstien hadn't asked himself  'What if  we travel in light speed?'... Of course "Relativity theory" wouldn't had born... 

• What if , what if... there are lots of 'What ifs' for which the answers had made great histories... 

                Each and  every thing we do in our life time definitely will have impact on our lives itself... Remember that, missing an opportunity is also one of that 'Each and every things'...

                I view life as a maze game... There is a reason for this... In a maze game, we never know what behind each and every walls and every turns inside the Maze... Life also doesn't reveal anything unless you move forward... And one cliche point is that, our life starts at the centre of the maze... Whether or not you want to play it, you are already inside the game... There are two choices you can go for... One is you can reside inside a place and get satisfied for playing well the maze-game... Obviously no one knows in which piece of the game you are at and you also can't know at which piece of the maze others are at... Unless you start exploring the place... I can't say that you can get nurtured by the experiences, but I can assure that more you explore life, more you come to know you hadn't known many things... Which in turn can urge you to explore more...        

             Finally, I have never heard of some one saying their missed chances in their first life, making use of them in their second life or the life after which they are living now... As far as we know, we got only one life to dwell inside, make impact, go long and jump out of the sky if you wish... So make the living best... Never get stagnated at a single thing... Take a ride, get to the top of  a cliff and say to the world  "I am here to live my life to the fullest... So there are no more excuses and no more reconsiderations..." Take part in everything... Be a part of every smiles around you...  

                

A Self-Definable Life!!!

                                 And!!!! Here goes a post about the most discussed , most accepted and at the mean time most ignored topic of Centuries...  Yes ,Life it is...

                                   People who talk, write or advice about Life things usually use  "I-experienced-it-so-I-knew-it"  kinda tone... May be that's the reason most people who hear the LIFE conversations doesn't give a damn about it...  And in no way am going to use that tone now...  Let us have some cool and interesting facts about LIFE that I feel like sharing...

                                   I don't feel like giving you points to overcome fear, miseries, depression, lack of confidence etc in your lives... Because it has been long said that each and every one of us have our own problems in life...  A life without issues is like rose without thorns... There are many kinda flowers that is as colourful as Rose... As beautiful as Rose... Possess as good smell as Rose possesses... But the thorns on it's stem signifies it...Without problems life is not interesting and significant...

                                     Each and everyone of our lives are SELF-DEFINABLE... A writer me defines my life in my way of doing things, experiencing moments, having relationship with person to whom am talking or hanging around with... Like wise you might be a student, a scholar with any degree,be at any profession say for a professor,a doctor, an engineer or whatever... The way you define your life things is how it is going to work out ...

                         
                          For example again me being a writer,a reader etc , I love to sit under a tree all filled with small green leaves and colourful flowers(Yellow Flower in precise), in a place full of grass that extends unto my eye's view point in the late evening... Seeing that tree's leaves waving and blowing a thin breeze that touches my face when I was deep down into reading my favourite book  and immerse into thoughts of my fantasy world... I love the companion ship of the cuckoo bird... The environment would be filled with silence except the Cuckoo sound... That make me feel like am hearing a  symphony at best ever place and best ever environment in the world...  This kinda experience will help me refine my thoughts and improve my skill of  lively writing...   

                            My way of defining my happiness will of course be different from your's and others too...  Some one hates sitting in the grass... Some may get frustrated being alone... A psychologist may wants to be with people to observe them...  An engineer might have the attraction towards the amazing innovations around them... I mention Engineers and Doctors not to mean the job and salary associated with them... But the way of life for ,which most of them would like to get around...

                                Now being accepted that we all have separate dreams, hopes, different paths in life,  it make much sense if we don't compare our bad times with some one else's good times... The point now is to define a life for ourselves...

I feel the urge to clarify two things here...

1) There are possibilities that readers may understand the meaning of "SELF-DEFINED LIFE" as some kind of selfishness oriented one... That's not the case... I'll explain "How it is not" later...

2) A question that will probably arise in all of our mind is "Is it possible to define our own lives? Will it be reasonable? "

Here is the answer for both the issues...
                                      A self-defined life doesn't mean living a life without considering people around us... It means a life defined by us to live independent  of others... It means a life defined by us that gives us an Identity... A life defined by us that gives us the right to do things that we like... A life defined by us that makes us reasonable and wise.

        "Either write something that worth reading or
           Do  something that worth Writing...."

                                                                  -Benjamin Franklin  

                                 Human lives are obviously self-definable...  A cat's life is a good example for this... We once use to feed a cat which is white colour with black spots in our home which was wandering around our house often... As days passed the cat become more familiar and lovable to our family members... It knows the timing of our breakfast, lunch and dinner... It knows the sleeping time and wake up time of everyone in our house... It come inside the house after all had slept and leave the house before we wake up... Some days the Cat's "miaouv" sound is our wake  up alarm... 

Once the Cat yielded 3 kittens... As far as the safety is concerned, the cat itself brought those kittens inside our house and kept them at our store room's shelf where old stuff had been kept and we hardly clean that shelf (that too was known by this creaky freaky Cat)...  Even though we fed the cat for long time and even though it does have some sense that we will not harm those kittens, if any one get near the shelf to see the kittens it use start screaming at us in cat's language... It had never let us get near the kittens unless they grow up little bit... But after some 15 to 20 days we use to play with those cute and active kittens which was really a fun... You won't believe those... Those kittens play hide and seek among themselves , one hiding behind our dining table leg and other jump at it and find it... That mom cat didn't screamed any more... 

                                    The reason why am sharing this is that , whatever the hospitality we gave that cat, though it knows we fed it when it was hungry, even after we made it one of our family members, 
when it came to the safety of it's kittens, nothing worked out...  You can say it don't have common sense... But if it is so, it should have neither intended to protect it's kittens...

               Like the same, we humans can define our own lives in the way that nothing can stand in front of our Dreams, Hopes and Determination towards our lives... So yes, our "LIFE IS SELF DEFINABLE..."



Now, How can we define our LIFE as we like? 
                                 Remember one thing... The life we living now is the only life where we can be ourselves...  Life is meant to be lived... Living means not surviving... One sad thing that we all should accept is that, most of the people take Survival facts as the necessary thing to accomplish in life... We often hear most of our parents telling us to get a good job, build our own house, buy a car for our own, Protect their name in this society... It is so implausible to let our life get defined by the society... A society will criticise everything and everyone in the world... If someone decides to change their desires and dreams for the society and family, then that person can never achieve what he/she want to achieve...  
                               
                                  Set things upright... Never give up at anything you attended... Never lose hope on something you intended to do... Dream Big... Never change your dreams for others... Do things that help you refine your mind... Involve in activities that bring you out of the box and gives you an unique identity... Create an environment that will help you to accomplish your wish...
A SWAN use to sleep resting it's head on it's feathers while flying ,if the destination is too long... It don't use to get down and take rest...  So never rest unless you reach your destination... 
                                     
                                      "Go and fly... While the heat is high... Until you reach the sky... Never Give up unless you die..."               
                                         
I defined mine... Define your's...                
                                                                                                                                           -Maha