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இரயில் நிலயம் வந்ததும்
கதவோரம் காலியான இடத்தில்
சென்று நின்று கொண்டான்
நீல நிற சட்டை காரன்.

வண்டி கிளம்பியதும்
எதிர் திசையில் வீசிய காற்றை
ரசிப்பவனாய் கண் மூடி சிரித்து கொள்கிறான்,
சற்றே  சிலிர்த்து  கொள்கிறான்.

அடுத்த நிறுத்தத்தில் இறங்க வேண்டியவனை போல
ஆயுத்த படுத்தி கொண்டிருக்கும்போது
சட்டென்று திரும்பி பார்க்கிறான்
இரயிலில் கூவி கூவி புத்தகம் விற்பரவின்
குரலை கேட்டு.

'1212 கேள்விகள், 1212 பதில்கள்,
இந்தியாவின் முதல் ஆளுநர் யார்?
இந்தியாவின் முதல் ஜனாதிபதி யார்?
இந்தியாவில் எத்தனை ஆறுகள் உள்ளன?
பாம்பில் எத்தனை வகை உள்ளது?
குரங்கில் எத்தனை வகை உள்ளது?
மனித உடம்பில் எவ்வளவு இரத்தம் உள்ளது?
இப்படி 1212 கேள்விகள், 1212 பதில்கள்
வெறும் 20 ரூபாய்க்கு'

இவனை போலவே அங்கிருந்த எவருக்கும்
1212 பதில்களை தெரிந்து கொள்ள வேண்டும் என்றோ ,
அந்த மனிதனின் ஒரு வேலை சாப்பாட்டிற்கு
வழி செய்ய வேண்டும் என்ற எண்ணமோ எழுந்ததற்கு
எந்த வித அறிகுறியும் இல்லை.

யாரும் ஏறெடுத்து கூட பார்க்க மருதத்தை
சிறிதும் பொருட் படுத்தாதவறாய்
அடுத்த பெட்டிக்கு இறங்கி ஓடுகிறார்
1212 பதில்களை ஒருவருக்கேனும்
ஊட்டி விட வேண்டும் என்ற வைராக்யாத்தோடு.

நீல நிற சட்டை காரன் இறங்கி சென்றதை கவனிக்காது
அந்த புத்தகம் விற்பவரை பற்றி எண்ணி கொடிருந்தேன்.

இரயில் கிளம்பியது.
சட்டென்று முந்தியடித்து கொண்டு
ஓடும்  இரயிலை விட்டு இறங்கி
அந்த நீல சட்டை காரணிடம் ஓடி ஒட்டி கொண்டேன்,
இறங்கும் பொது உன் 'மனசையும்' சேர்த்து
அழைத்து செல்ல மாட்டாயா என்று கடிந்து கொண்டே.

                  -மகா 

 

An ample of misunderstanding!

                  People around you misunderstand. Friends misunderstand. Loved ones miunderstand each other. You misunderstand yourself at times. 
                
                  Humans are supposed to misunderstand each other unless and until there is a chance by which we can hear or sense what is going on inside other's mind. But being a common and inevitable problem we people never take this thing as a it-always-happens kind of event between two persons. We feel worried when our companion misunderstands us. We feel frustrated when our parents misunderstands us. We feel angry when our friends misunderstands us.  One thing we need to understand is that most of us misundertood the real context of MISUNDERSTANDING phenomenon. 

                  When a friend chooses to say a word that doesn't complies us, we think they misunderstood us. When our parents tries to force a thing on us that we hardly like to continue, we think they misunderstood us. When our loved ones seems to do a thing that contradicts our so called wish-list we think they misunderstood us. 

                  Misunderstanding is a common behavioural factor of humans like angriness, laziness, hatred etc. It is just that if someone doesn't understands us it is not only their mistake. To be true the biggest part of the mistake is we ourselves. Some how we might have failed to expressed what we are expecting or what we are thinking which turns out to be a false judgement by others on us.  What it leads is continous ruckus with that person. 

                  No one can ever be understood completely by others. There are always misunderstandings in the process of knowing each other. This is what I persume as a core reason for misunderstandings. KNOWING EACH OTHER. If any person misunderstands us in any situation it means they tried to know about us which turned out to be wrong. It's as simple as that. If our loved one misunderstands us it means they tried to know about us and failed rather than assuming like 'even after being in a relationship for years how can he/she misunderstood me?' 

                 I am not stating that just let this misunderstanding thing fly away and continue your relationship with that person. It depends on our attitude. If you are a type of person who can get flectuated with new people and new surroundings then you can quickly decide that the person who misunderstoods is not the right person you are searching for and continue your journey of finding new people. On the other hand if you are a person who wants a single and best relationship either in Friendsship or love , sit back and identify where you failed to express yourselves because of which that person tends to make a false decision about you.  

                 After all life is made of many things which also includes misunderstandings. But life can never be accomplished fully if misunderstanding plays a bigger role. 
                  

Dreams, a perspective ...

               Already lots of people there in the world had talked and is talking about dreams and ways to achieve those dreams. They had even shared their own life experiences on how they achieved their particular dream.  But what many of those works lacks is how to identify a dream? Isn't there any difference between getting attracted to something and dreaming about that thing? Do we intend to dream about the things we got attracted to or we get attracted to things which we dream of? 

               
In  formal meaning dream is a series of thoughts, images and sensations occuring in a person's mind during his sleep. But that is not what we are talking about here.  Dream also has another context. It is uncherished desire or ambition in one's life. 

                Talking informally, a dream is a serious of thoughts that makes you forget your real world and let you imagine about yourself achieving that dream. It doesn't let you sleep. It will always pushes you into the circle where you can have all kind of supportive environment to achieve what you are dreaming about. Only thing you need to do is to dream. Nothing else. Just dream hard about a certain thing and you can see yourself making a progress towards the success path of that dream. 

                The most crucial part lies here. What if I have more than one dream at a time? What if I want all of those dreams to come true? What if I am unable to priorotise my dreams? Does it mean that I am assuming wrong things as my dreams? Does it mean that I cannot achieve more than one dream at a time? 

                 It is always a never ending battle inside me. I am not talking negative here. I am trying to be positive. If you ask me, I would say ,trying to be positive is also one of my dreams and I am trying hard to be positive about my view on Dreams which leads me in achieving my dream.   

                 Let me talk about the longavity of dreams. A dream remains sustainable or dissolve like a sea sand, it is absolutely in your lust towards that dream. If you madly determined on achieving that dream, it will have a sustainable growth. 

                 A friend of mine once asked "How can you be everything you are dreaming of?" I see this question as my friend's intolerance towards the freakish conversations about lives, dreams, passion etc. What I realised is though sustainability is in my hands, their birth is not in my area of control. Unfortunaltely that may be the reason others see me as a confusionist. Believe me,confusionism isn't a big deal when you have lots of things in mind to be achieved. For me staying confused is letting me do the things I needed to do at right time. It isn't in commonness. It is in uniqueness. 

                My uniqueness on my dreams may not be acceptable by others but that's how uniquenesses are understood throughout the mankind. 

                Getting lost in dreams is a blissful moment to experience. I never got tired of dreaming. No one will get tired of imagining about themselves being in a place where they hardly want to be. It isn't hard to develop a dream from a initial stage. The more easy it is to imagine, the more hard it is to stay along. 

                 Humans are made of Dreams and Love. Some may love to dream. Some may dream to love. Some may love to love their dreams. Some may even dream of loving their dreams.  All we need is to let our wings open in order to float on the air of happiness... 

-Happy dreams!

Yet another strange expectation!!

                  What if I have a person like me who can explain me when I am about to do mistakes? 

                  What if I have a person like me who understands me when I am frustrated for some reason? 

                  What if I have a person like me who could argue with me and win over me to make me realise I am wrong?

                  What if I have a person like me who can sit back and watch me the way I want myself to be watched? 

                  What if I have a person like me who go and do things to teach me something that I am refusing to learn to? 

                  What if I have a person like me who can clearly lay the path for me to continue my journey? 

                  What if i have a person like me who come,pat me behind and assure me that whatever I dream of doing I am able to achieve that dream?

                  

                                                                                                         -In the search of that person. 

Easy vs Uneasy!!!

             

              It is easy being easy to accept a mistake done by me when others point it.  

             But it is uneasy to keep on hearing them pointing my mistake again and again.. 

             It is being easy to laugh along with friends when I get teased about something I am accustomed to...  

            But it is being uneasy to bear them when I get teased for something I regret about... 

             It is being easy for me let go my loses...  

             But it is being uneasy to hear others labeling me as a loser...  

             It is being easy to do many things at the same time without even a second thought... 

             But it is being uneasy when others tend to judge me as a confused person... 

             It is being easy to increase my confidence level on whatever things I do... 

             But it is being uneasy when others take my confidence as over confidence... 

             It is being easy to tell others that I am not alone...  

             It is being uneasy to accept something to be true when it is actually not like the one mentioned above... 

             It is being easy to realise my inner thoughts and what am capable of doing...

             But it is being uneasy to find a person who can realise that I realised what I am upto... 

             It is being easy to dream... 

             It is being uneasy to express it... 

             It is being easy to learn certain things... 

             But it is being useasy when others boast themselves for learning that thing and pretending as they are the only people who could do so... 

              It is being easy to be starnge, freak, different, mad etc.. 

              But it is being uneasy to make others accept me as what I am... 

              It is being easy to be open to everyone... 

              But it is being uneasy to tolerate the judgements being made on me by others... 

              It is being easy to be careful... 

              But it is being uneasy when others try to screen me with a carelessness image.... 

               It is being easy to write these things in my blog.. 

               It is never going to be easy to make others understand my uneasiness in above mentioned things, may be because I am this kind of person who easily get annoyed, and uneasily get gratified... 

                                                                                                                               - In uneasy easiness...